On relationships...

So I have already started this little relationshippy blogging thing with a previous post on confidence and what-not. I will be back and forth with my topics (maybe I should have mentioned that somewhere at the start of my blog before my poor readers get confused). Between my personal life, my relationship advice and graphic design/art and various interests, I hope you find something interesting to read about. 

Okay, so I haven't managed to get myself a picture of my new haircut up... stay tuned for that! It will arrive eventually. Oh gosh, as I type I am realizing that I have so much work to do...breathe...and it has me overwhelmed at times. What am I doing writing here...

I am typing this mess for a reason (I think) because I was on facebook earlier [don't judge me] wanting to write a new note like I usually do when I am inspired or mulling something over during the day. 

Today is about intimacy. No, not the naughty kind, but the real kind. I keep thinking a little here and there, about the sort of man I hope to be with one day (one can only dream). While I have kept myself out of harms way in the world up until now, occasionally allowing myself to trip and fall, I am wiser, content and more reserved therefore not really searching (read: desperately clamoring) to find a good man anymore until my heart is right and my head is clear. I have finally decided that I don't want to wait anymore, and although I have one hopeful prospective, I can't help find myself feeling rather impatient on the matter! I want to know what real intimacy is in a healthy, positive relationship, where two people become so close and transparent, enjoying the connection that vulnerability brings. 

Sounds a little cliche, but whatever, it's out there, people! It normally only lasts during the first phase of a relationship (where people are smitten and 'in love') but I'm talking about the unconditional love where they get on your nerves but are still your best friend through and through.

I think at this point in my journey, after betrayal and heartbreak, I am just wishing to be at peace and know how to trust again. I know that if you cannot trust, you cannot give your heart fully and love in a way that is unconditional.